Thursday, December 17, 2009

tis the season

Well its that time of year. I love Christmas, everything about it. One of my favorite things is going to pick out our tree, just looking for the perfect one for us and then of course bringing it home and watching Jim fight with the stand,lol he was pretty funny this year and he actually broke the stand so I bought a new one and when I brought that home he had the biggest smile cause its a great stand, he should have no issues next year,lol and this year after Jim put the lights up I let the kids go to town and they did an awesome job. mommy only had to fix a few,lol also this is the first year they leave the tree be!! I am in heaven,haha

well we had a friend come watch the kids and Jim and I did our Christmas shopping, I do some by myself but I believe we should do it together after all we are both Santa plus any chance to get out together alone is great. We did pretty good I think we only want a little over our set budget this year, much better then last year, boy did I go a bit crazy last year,heehee After our shopping was done we headed over to Red Lobster for dinner, oh my how I love seafood!!! When Jim and I first started dating he took me to red lobster cause my mom told him that's my fav place. He was not a seafood person then but you got to give the man credit he sat across from me while I cracked, slurped and completely pigged out,haha He did look a bit ill here and there =) well he is much better now, he likes shrimp,crab legs and lobster so he is a keeper!!! After the holidays I want to take Derrick and Brooklyn out to eat there as they share my love of seafood, I figure that Jim can take Jimmy somewhere so he don't feel left out,lol

The house is all ready to go, I still have to wrap and today I am sitting here and like oh shit I forgot the wrapping paper and tape. How could I do that,lol I will go tonight and get some. I am hoping to have Jim take the kids out this weekend so I can get some wrapping done. after we do Christmas eve children's mass Jim takes the kids out for Ice cream, yes I said ice cream I do live in Florida so hot chocolate don't seem right most days here anyways they get the ice cream and they drive around looking at houses all decorated while I am at home wrapping and wrapping. so most likely that's what will happen I really do worker faster under pressure,haha

I just cant wait to see the kids faces, its the best thing when they are yelling LOOK!!! and then after all is said and done I can look over at my husband and smile thinking another year done and over and we did good!!

I miss my family something horrible. I am super close to my family and its really hard not being able to be home for the holidays but I should be getting use to it right?? well wrong it still hurts.But I will be on the phone ALL day with them,lol I would love love love to live closer to my family but I cant give up Florida,lol I am so not a snow person, I love the sun and fun kinda life. My mom and my mother in law keep talking about moving here in a few years, my dad will not budge as he says his house is paid off why would he move,lol I would love my siblings to come on down but don't really see that happening for many reasons. so I will just treasure those times I am with them. And for us not living close to our family our kids are very close to their grandparents, aunts, and uncles. it would be nice for them to have that great bond with their cousins the way I did growing up but really lets quit with the what ifs.

I will have to go take a pictures of the palm tress all decorated for the holidays I still find it funny as hell,lol

well I need to go pick Brooklyn up and take her to the Dr. for a checkup she is getting her adenoids removed on the 31st I guess that's a great way to end 2009!!lol

Friday, October 16, 2009

update on jimmy's ear

Well I started a blog on an update about Jimmy's hearing test a few days ago, but monster #3 (Derrick) erased it when I left the room for a min. So here is my 2nd attempt,lol

Well he did the hearing test, they stuck him in a sound proof room and hooked all kinds of things up to his little ears and then all kinds of charts came on the computer. After doing that for a few they then shut him in the soundproof room and she would ask him to say things back that he heard through the ear phones and to also raise his hands when he heard a beep. He did so well, but I knew something was not right. There was a few times she told him to say something and he just looked at her like he new she said something but was not sure. My heart stopped. As a Mom you want your kids to be happy and healthy and I am sitting there like oh Shit something is not right. Well after they were done she said His left ear is great, his right is having some problems. His little ear drum is dropped some and not picking up as well as it should. All I could do was say ok, is it perminent damage? Thankgod she said no that she can tell by looking at him and hearing him talk that he has some allergy and or sinus problems. And after thats taken care of they will retest him and he should do fine. Thank you Thank you Thank you is all I could think.

Now I knew he has allergies and they drive me nuts. His nose is always running and there are days his big brown eyes are just so red and puffy. When we went to the doctors the week before I had stressed my concerns on how to get his allergies under controll so he is on a allergy med and a nose inhaler and we are going to give it 2 weeks to see if he improves if not then we are going to have to check his sinuse cavity and go see a ear nose throat dr. So after thats all taking care of then his ear should also be ok. I nursed that little monster till he was 14 months old and man that kid has allergies to many things.

on another note, we want to Jimmys first school fall festival. It was so darn cute, they had bounce houses and games set up and little booths for nail painting, hair coloring, face painting, craft tables ect. They turned the music room into a dance club with music and disco balls and glow sticks. The kids had a blast!!! My husband even got into it . He is such a big kid!! I swear he was the only parent to do the potato sack race aginst the other kids,lol of course he made sure he fell a few times so he would get beat. I wish we would have had stuff like that while in school, it was nice fun for a family to do and the kids could also hang with thier school friends. And Jimmy has many, kids were running to him all night. The girls would pat him on the back say hi, giggle and run.hahaha

Jim had the day off. So the night before he tells me not to back Jimmy a full lunch just to put a few things in. So when it was coming on lunchtime at Jimmy's school Jim ran up to mcdonalds got him a happy meal and went and had a surprised lunch with Jimmy. Jim said it was perfect timeing, that jimmy was unpacking his lunch and kept looking in his lunch bag with a puzzled look like where is my sandwhich, he looked up and their was his daddy with mcdonalds! So Jim sat down and had lunch with Jimmy and his class. Jim said it was like a treat for all the other kids they kept trying to sit closer and asking Jim all kinds of questions.
Well then he picked Brooklyn up from school, and when she seen him I guess she yelled daddy and ran to him. He then took her to mcdonalds for a afterschool happy meal, cause in my house you cant get one kid something without doing the same for the other. So the kids loved it and I liked the fact I dint have to go get Brooklyn. So all in all it was a great day!!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

do I have a right to be a bit annoyed

well its been pretty crazy here. First Jimmy didn't do so great with his hearing check at school. It didn't come back failed they just said he had difficulty. I took him to his Dr. just to make sure that there was no wax build up or fluid in his ears and there was not. I told the Dr. I was not worried I never had any signs of problems if anything he just was not paying attention as he is only 5 years old plus it was done at the begining of the school year and he most likely did not know what he was doing, so to be safe I have an appointment with him at 5 this evening for a correct hearing test for a kid at that age. I have no doubt he will do fine and pass.

well last week Brooklyn's teacher had pulled me aside to ask if I would sign a paper to let Brooklyn be observed for a speech problem, I said sure but why. They are worried about her speech. I was blown away. well at the same time we were talking Brooklyn runs up and says mommy did you bring my homework, and the teacher then says that the first time she has heard Brooklyn say a sentence. well OK If you have never heard her talk a sentence how can you think there is a problem, DUH!!!! anyways the guy called yesterday to discuss what he observed with her. He said she didn't want to talk much and I said well 1. she is very shy and 2. your a male (shes is not big on males) he said he asked her if she knew her ABC she said yes he said will you say them . she said no, he then asked do you know them but don't want to tell me and she said yes.
anyways he says he thinks she could have a problem that it wouldn't be a bad idea to have her checked out. Then he goes she don't seem to like to talk. I laughed I said I am a mother of 3 kids and Brooklyn is my loudest child and from the moment she wakes up till she finally zonks out she don't shut up. He was like really, I then said I have never heard her talk in any way that would concern me she also has a big vocabulary for her age. The only problem I see is how shy she is and that my husband and i are looking into putting her in a after school activity to help open her up. he asked if I would like him to refer him to someone to have her really checked out, I said i would talk to Jim and get back with him.

well Jim came home I told him and he then says what do you think, I said I am against it cause I really don't see a issue at all with her speech. I said I was leaving the decision up to him. He agreed with me of course so I am done with it.
now please don't get me wrong I am not one of those moms who thinks their kid is perfect and nothing could be wrong. If I thought for a second that she could benefit from some help she would be there really quick. I am her mother and I know my child and I believe she is fine and just needs to come out of her shell and mature a bit.
I then called my mom just to see what she thought and she agreed with me, she said my younger sister had a hard time saying words with rs when she was younger and after she grew there was no issue. she said if Kari(my sis) was a kid now a days they would probably be telling her the same stuff, she said that the schools now kind of get into to much of our business then they should. And I agree. now if a kid is coming to school dirty or bruised up by all means do get involved just to be safe, but don't tell me there is a speech problem when she does not talk to you.

so now I need to find something to interest her in so she can be with other kids and help her stop being so shy. plus blackmail works really good in my house,lol is that bad?hahaha so I told her if she starts talking more at school and just a little louder so they can hear her I will take her to toys r us at the end of the month and give her $20.00 to spend on what she wants,lol she is excited so we will see how that works.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Missing beautiful Fall

Missing Fall big time right about now. Its football season and to me that just screams sweatshirts and sweats good warm food like chilli or stews and a cold crisp air coming through the window as green, brown orange yellow leaves fall onto the yard. * SIGH*

I love it here in Sunny Florida but I guess if you grow up and enjoy the changes in seasons then that is going to be a thing you miss. raking leaves and letting the kids jump into the piles would be fun and they would love it for sure!!

even stinking winter, as much as I hate the snow. The idea of sitting on the couch with a blanket and a good book as the pretty white snow comes down and the kids enjoy a cup of hot chocolate The way its meant to be. Even running out and playing in the snow would be nice for them and bring good memories from my childhood.

Then Spring another good season, where everything just seems so new and bright after months of cold white snow that then turns gray and icky. The excitement of school ending for the summer.

Well nothing to write about summer cause that's a season I don't get a chance to miss much,lol
It should be cooling down here soon and then we can enjoy our chilli's and hot chocolates. The other morning I woke up and made my coffee and went out into the sun room to drink it and have some peace and Melinda time before I had to wake the kids for school, well as I walked out I turned right around and grabbed the blanket of the couch to wrap in. It was chilly at 74 degrees,hahaha I just sat and enjoyed the chilliness thinking how all my friends and family back in Ohio would just love to have weather like that, its cold to me but warm to them.

Its funny to think how when we moved here in 2007 from Michigan, we would laugh at our friends who had to put a coat on to go out and smoke and that first year we never turned our heat on. but after the first year we must have adjusted and now if it drops in low to mid 70s we are chilly. and we actually used our heat for a few times last winter. haha!!

well I should stop dreaming about Fall in Ohio and go get dinner started as soon as I figure out what, Sundays I usually have a big meal planed but not today I am just a bit beat, so I am thinking something quick and simple..

Saturday, October 3, 2009

just a sat. night at home

well its Saturday night and all kids were asleep by 930pm, how nice is that. I should be mopping, sometimes I swear I should just have a mop as one of my legs, its all I do. My house is all tile and hardwood and I have 3 messy kids so you can just imagine what my floors look like and then understand why I mop all the time. But I think I am skipping it tonight. I will just give a quick sweep cause you know the crumbs are all over the place and the sand.
OH the freakin sand, I LOVE LOVE LOVE the beach and living in Florida but seriously the sand is out of control, I have to clean the kids tub every night after baths because of the crazy sand that seems to attache its self to my children.

well things have been pretty good around here, except my ear. A few weeks back I got really really sick (Brooklyn and Derrick too) anyways after I finally started to get over it my ear started to feel strange. Like clogged up wear you hear the ocean, well I had to take Derrick for a ear checkup and I mentioned my ear to the Dr. he said he could look at it to make sure its not infected but he wouldn't be able to give me anything as he is a pediatrician, I thought cool save myself a trip to the Dr's unless its infected. well he said I am backed up just full of fluid and that really there is nothing to do unless it starts to hurt and gets infected. he said it could take a few weeks to drain out. Its been like 3 now and It is really starting to piss me off!! I cant hear right which just puts me off my game. I have decided if its still this bad by Wednesday I am calling my Dr. and they have to do something, right????

well my big boy had his award celebration at school this pass week, I was sou proud and he looked so big and cute. I have pics from first day of school and more but I cant figure out how to download them, I always download and I must have forgotten how. I will MAKE Jim do it tomorrow and I will watch a be like oh that's right, like the moron I can be. So as soon as they are downloaded I will post some pics of my kids. I cant believe how big they are. Jimmy will be 6 in Nov. 6!!! I cant believe it, he is such a wonderful kid a bit whiny at times but overall one of the best kids I have ever seen and yes its a bit bias,lol Brooklyn is doing great, she really is learning alot at school and making friends. Its so neat seeing them with their friends, they way they talk and play together. And my baby Derrick what a little shit he has become, but he is so cute you cant stay mad for long. My hubby had to go buy a snake for drains because of him, he has stuffed and clogged the two toilets, 1 sink and the tub. Don't ask what or how, he is amazing with being sneaky and fast. But as i said he is just so darn cute and silly.

I also have so much on my mind, my sister is getting married in a year and its SO hard to help plan her wedding living so far. I kind of feel bad like I am letting her down by not being able to help more, I am hoping to go in the spring to pick dresses out but we will see how money is cause its not like I would feel comfy leaving my kids, so they would come and then knowing Jim he will want to come if he has vacay, cant go back to out hometown without him,lol
I also have this friend that I have gotten to know better over facebook/myspace and she is going threw some stuff and I really feel for her so it been on my mind too. I just sometimes really wish I lived in Ohio so I could see and hang with my friends and family, and also my kids could have their family, but the thought of moving back there with the snow,lol is just not that appealing,lol

well I really should go sweep and go to bed. so till next time.....

Friday, September 25, 2009


I got the best news yesterday!!! I had a conference with Jimmy's teacher to see how his testing went. They test them at the beginning of the year, then midway and then at the end of the year.
Well he did awesome, he did better then most kids in his class. He is in the highest reading group they have at that grade level, and by the end of the year they want all kids to score a 80% or higher. Well its the beginning of the year and they started testing the 2ND week of school just to see where kids are at. So they don't have high expectations for them to be at 80% at the start of the year. Well I am proud to say my son scored a 77%, I am so freakin over the moon. I knew he was smart but come on I am his mom so its wonderful to hear from the teacher that he is above average.

I just hope to keep him wanting to learn more and more as he grows. we do learning games daily and read daily. He loves the library, which we go to at least once a week. And I am already giving him spelling words which he has to write 5XS a night, its not like I am being tough on him at this young age, he really enjoys it. I try to do it with Brooklyn but she is still young and don't have to much of a interest, she only turned 4 in June. She does love to read and write and stuff like that, but after 10. Min's she has had enough. SO I don't push her. Each kid is different and each kid has their own way and time of doing things, I just want them to know that we are here for them and give them the tools to exceed.

well after the teacher gave us the wonderful news of his test scores, she then told us he was picked for student of the month. I could not be prouder!!!! my baby is student of the month and the first one of the new school year at that, how awesome!!!!
Then as we are leaving another teacher and the Secretary stopped us to tell us what a wonderful boy Jimmy is and that we should be proud knowing we are doing a great job raising him. I swear I could get compliments like that all day. I know my kids are smart and beautiful and usually good, but its really great to hear that from others.
Now don't get me wrong they can be evil little demons who make me want to rip my hair out from time to time but I am so grateful that I can be their mother and help them become their own person.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

the big 30

So I am sitting here just thinking where all my years have gone, and what I have done over the years. I am going to be 30 on Sunday and I still cant belive it. I just dont feel that age, I dont really think as 30 as old, I just cant belive I am going to be 30. Where has the years gone. Has being a wife/mother really taken all my 20s and made time go faster.

I remember as a kid, getting excited for my birthday. The gifts, cake and just one more year down. All those special ages you wanted to be. 13 so you can finally say I am a teenager, then 15 so you could get your permit, 16 so you can drive!! 18 your an adult and most likley are graduating highschool. 20 your not in the teens nomore and only one year till you can drink!! then of course 21 you can drink now!! Then what??? I dont have anymore ages to look forward to, I am not saying it all goes down hill, but the excitment of your birthdays are gone. I mean what can you say, I am gonna be 30 and I can do???? well what?? What can I do that I couldnt before?? Its just kinda sad in a way. So now I look forward to my kids turning older and seeing how much they have growned and learned from year to year. And see the excitment in thier faces as they turn those wonderful ages and have the yearly countdown till they can do this and that.

So here I sit a few days from the big 30 and I feel sad not because I am getting old, cause I am not, you are only as old as you feel. and this chick still feels in her mid 20s at times, but I feel sad cause the excitment of my own birthday is gone.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


25 Firsts...
1. Who was your first prom date? I only went my Jr. year cause I was too busy my senior year with work, but Jr. year was a blast and I went with my then boyfriend Carl Brenner.

2. Do you still talk to your first love? my first childhood love .. I have not talked to him in about 11 years and found out that he passed a few months ago. and even though we didn't talk anymore it still hurt a little cause I was with him on and off for those important teenage years.

.3. What was your first alcoholic drink? I am not totally sure on the flav. but it was wine coolers that me and my then BFF Amy stole from her parents and went in the backyard and got pretty darn buzzed, I was only 13 so it did not take much,lol

4. What was your first job? I was a cashier at the neighborhood Sparkles, it was really fun. I worked with a bunch of people I grew up with.

5. What was your first car? a 1988 Oldsmobile delta 88, it was my moms but after I wrecked it the first time she didn't want anything to do with it,lol I ruined it. it was beautiful before I drove it by the time I was done with it. it had dents all around,lol Those telephone poles really did jump out at me and that dang drive thru moved when I was going thru it,hahaha

6. Who was the first person to text you today? no one today =(

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning? I guess Jimmy since he is who I wake up first, I lay in bed with him and tickle him till he wakes up, he loves it,lol

8. Who was your first grade teacher? Omg you know I am old, cause I can not remember! I had Mrs. Miller for 2ND grade

9. Where did you go on your first flight, in an airplane.... that would be to Jamaica, well I lived in the Cleveland area at the time so we flew out of Cleveland to Miami then from there To Jamaica. It was AWESOME!!!!! we will go back someday!

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk? hmmm my first best friend would have been Tracey and I have not talked or seen her since I was 15 years old.

11. Where was your first sleep over? probably my cousins Shannon's, we were real close growing up I remember staying like a week at her house then going home and that night she would be staying at my house for like a week.

12. Who was the first person to talked to today? Jimmy when I woke his sleepy butt up.

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time? my moms when I was like 9 and she married my step father, I still remember that dang dress it was sooo itchy!!!

14. What was the first thing you did this morning? turn the coffee pot on!!!!!

15. What was the, first concert you went to? hmm I think early 90s I went to end fest and seen candlebox and a bunch others it was cool.

16. First Tattoo? I was 15 i got a black widow spider on the back of my neck. I still remember calling my mom and she is like what did you get and where and she freaked, she thought I was gonna come home with a spider and web around my neck,lol Its in a good place no one can see it unless my hair is up.

17. First piercing? I have no idea, I was real little.

18. First foreign country you went to? Canada, beautiful!! Use to go with my parents and then for our anniversary one year Jim woke me up and told me to pack a bag he was taking me out of town for a few days, I had no idea where we were going till we were almost there, he can be sweet at times,lol

19. First movie you remember seeing? I have no idea, I do remember going to the drive inn in Pittsburgh to see Howard the duck,lol I should rent that for the kids too see.

20. What state you lived in? well I was born In Erie Pa. and lived there till I was about 6 Then to Ohio till I was 24, then Jim and I moved to Michigan for a few years and now we live in Florida where I hope to be forever,lol

21. Who was your first roommate? well when I was 17 me and Amy rented a house for like 2 months,lol didn't work out too well so I moved back home and then I moved in with Jim when I was 20 and have been living with him since.

.22. When was your first detention? I have no idea what or when,lol I would say 9Th grade and probably skipping school or something like that.

23. When was your first kiss? I was 13 it was with my first real boyfriend Mike, we were on the trail at Mill Creek Park, I just remember being so scared since I had no idea what to do plus I was worried about his braces,lol It was really nice but then my friend Amy had told everyone so they all came to the trail to try and catch us and that was embarrassing. It was a really nice first kiss with someone I really liked.

24. What is one thing you would learn, if given the chance? I would love too learn to surf that would be soo cool and I just love the water, maybe 1 day!

25. Who will be the next to post this...???????????????????????????????

Monday, September 21, 2009

just my monday

what a morning, I go to take the kids to school and the car seats are missing!!!!! Jim forgot to put them in my car so I am freakin, what to do what to do. so The kids school are only 3 Min's. from the house so I strap them in, now the two oldest I was not worry about of course they still need the booster seats they are short kids,lol But Derrick that had me freakin. so I drop the two off and take the back streets to where Jim works its only 10-12 Min's away but I tell you I was freaking out. all that kept running through my head was oh god the cops are gonna stop me or worse this will be the day something happens, it was the longest 10 Min's of my life (well not really,lol) so I get to his work and I didn't even yell his face said it all,lol he just kept saying I am sorry I got up late and was just not on my game this morning. I said its all good now but new rule if the car seats need switched we do it the night before,lol I can not go through that again.

I am the type of person that tries to stick to the rules/laws. Now don't get me wrong I am not a goody two shoe I have done my share of things, I have partied in abandoned houses growing up, drink under age, smoked pot, had sex at 15. But as I grew up (keyword grew up) and became a wife and mother things changed. everything I do affects Jim and the kids, so that is what I think of when I do things. So I try and make good choices, now that don't mean I always do but who does.

so anyways I get home get some cleaning done, well actually alot I am ahead today for it being a Monday! GO ME!!!! =) so maybe I will have everything done before tonight so I can go to the gym.
I have been really slipping on the gym and I can see the weight,lol you know how it is summertime comes and you are busy doing this and that. then the shit with Jim doing a job switch affected me wanting to go. so This week I plan to get back into my Monday - Friday zone at the gym and I set a goal to quit smoking AGAIN!! I will I just need to pick a date and do it.
Things have been crazy here but a good crazy, the kids are in school and loving it!! they just started back at Sunday school and they love it, i love it too. I was not really into church growing up and after my grandmother passed and my parents split my mom and dad did not push us to stay, so I am a Sunday school 4Th grade drop out,lol but when I decided to get the kids into it I didn't want to be a hypocrite so I started going again, and I tell you I could not get over the calm peace fullness I felt that first day, it was like almost a feeling of coming home. So now I enjoy going and even made my adult confirmation. my only grip is when do I get to sleep in and stay up late,lol I cant stay up late on Fridays cause I get up early and zonk out, then come sat. I am up early cause I went to bed early on Fri. and then sat. night I need to go to bed early so I can get up for church,lol I need a thanksgiving break now,lol

so things have been good and that is all I can ask for.
I will write more later there is stuff I need to get off my chest but the kids are being super loud and I need to switch laundry before I go get Jimmy from school. why don't laundry ever end,lol

Friday, September 11, 2009

an update

oh my its been a very pretty long time since I have blogged, So much has gone on and I really dont have time to get to much into at the moment. So this will be quick and maybe at a later date I can go into it more.

well My husband Jim's job was killing him, he was never home and when he was home he worked on the laptop and blackberry every second of the day, he would fall asleep at the laptop he would be waken up at odd hours because of work, he had lost like 20lbs in 2 years due to all the stress, started having annxiety attacks, the first one he had, he knew something was wrong and went to the drs and they put him on meds and pretty much told him he should think of getting a new job that this one would most likley lead to a heart attack ( both his dad and grandfather had died in there early 50s due to heart problems, so I know that freaked him out) but he loved his job has been doing it for 12 years and makes really good money. My father also works for the same company and I had to(thats how we met) but about 4 years ago the companey was sold and the new owners dont care about the people all they care about is the money and they are pretty much killing the people. well thats just a short version anyways come may he (my hubby) pretty much had it, he was at his breaking point and didnt know what to do, so it got bad for a minute I talked him into going on med leave to give him some time to work it all out, so he did but he was just a mess. Broken is the only word that comes to mind when I think of it.
I did my best to keep things normal, which was hard at times. we were getting screwed every which way you could think, his short tearm disability denied us saying his issues was due to work, DUH!!!!! so they said workmans comp which we knew was gonna be bullshit since there is no physical injury, so again turned down. thankgod we had some money saved. and he ended up being on med leave from begging of may till June 25th and then we decided it was time to end it, move on. he is still young enough to start over and I knew something would come his way, yeah I knew we would end up taking a major paycutt, but I reather have him home and able to do things with us.
it got pretty hairy for a min. but he found a new job, he is in a 3-4 month training program and its a big paycut but you know what we will make it work, having him really be home when he is home is awesome, he has more energy and just seems like my old Jim.

well the kids are back in school. Brooklyn is in her first year of pre-k and she likes it and on her 2nd day she made a best friend,lol
Jimmy is in kindergarten now and loves it, He has already brought such great reports home from his teacher, he is just a amazing little man.

And then there is My Derrick who is home with me and I think he is now enjoying that mommy Derrick time, like today after we dropped the kids off at school we got breakfast and went to the beach and ate and had a nice walk.
well there is one thing left to blog about but that subject is just something I cant get into right now so maybe another day another blog. thanks for reading....

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

my new niece

I have a new niece she is a doll baby. I am so in love with her, i just wanted to stick her in my suitcase and bring her home. she makes me want another so bad. But I really think I am done, if I was to have a baby everytime I get that empty feeling I will have one every year,lol my oldest is 5 and my daughter will be 4 in June and my baby ( not so much a baby) will be 2 in June. and I am loving this chapter of motherhood, I can leave the house with no worries of a baby, I am FINALLY done nursing. YEA!!!!! my body is mine after all these years, there is a bit more of it then I want,lol but hell its all mine!!!!!! well I just had to drop a few lines on my new niece Elizabeth Ashley Ann, cause she stole my heart=) dont she look like a doll!!!
well I dont even know where to start.........its been a nice few weeks. First we drove from Florida to Ohio for easter, now thats one hell of a long drive,lol and throw a 5 year old a almost 4 year old and a almost 2 year old with that and it will be a adventure,lol but no really it was not that bad.

we did end up stoping half way and getting a room, which helped make it feel more like a vacay.
We ended up staying at my brother in laws house, which was really nice. The kids got to play with there cousins, and we didnt feel like we steped on anyone.
It was awesome to see all our fam. everyone is doing well. I am a bit worried about my grandmother, she has lost so much weight she looks about 90lbs, her face looks like tight skin on a skull,it freaked me out! thankgod my dad,sis and aunt gave me a heads up. her spirt is great she just dont feel right and noone seems to know why. I just cant belive how she looks I just seen her about 9 months ago and she seemed fine. I will just keep her in my prayers and hope her health turns around.
Easter was nice, the kids loved the easter baskets they got from the bunny =) and the grandparents. We ate at my dads first which started out nice, then Drama started, me and my older sister got into it. I love my sis. but seriously I cant stand her at times, she just acts and talks like she is better then everyone and it drives me completley nuts. I usually bite my lip cause I want to have a relationship with her and have been trying but I could not take her phoney I am better then you attitude another second and I blew up and probably a little to much on my part, seriously I just wanter to grab the frakin food and throw it on her!!! I am going to be 30 but man she just pushes my buttons so much I feel like I go back to a 15 year old hard ass,lol So we leave and go to Jims brothers house for dinner part 2 alot less drama,lol
later that night I sign in on my facebook and my sis deleted me,lmao seriously!!! are you freakin kidding me I am like dude your 35 grow the F**k up!!!!!! oh well, I am just tired and done with trying!!
anyways the reast of the visit was nice and went to fast.. The thursday before I was to leave I met up with a few friends from highschool at mcdonalds with our kids, it was nice, there was 6 of us and our 17 kids,lol I almost wish I lived closer so we could have playdates and stuff, it was nice seeing them and reconnecting on a adult level. I thank myspace/facebook for giving me a way to get to know them after all these years and miles. It truly was a blast!!
so then we had to get in the van for another 19 hour drive home to beautiful,sunny Florida =) we were sad to have to go but so happy to be heading home. now let me tell you the drive is very loooong let alone throw my hubbys gas into the mix,OMG I wanted to kill him, it was soo painfull yet funny at the same time, I needed to shower after being in that car,lol
but anyways now we are home, and still trying to get back to the way things roll here. I need to go clean the house up so I can get to bed, we have alot of things going on around here and a mommy with no sleep is a baaad thing,lol till next time

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


well its been awhile since my last blog. Things have just been a bit busy, doing what I am not sure but its like I get up and before I know it its time to get the kids to bed and sit down and relax with the hubby.

well first my oldest Jimmy graduated on the 10th (from preschool,lol) It was such a cute graduation ceremony, his class sang rock in robin,haha it was too cute. then the classes Spanish teacher had them count to 30 in Spanish and the class then sang a song in Spanish. I must say I was a proud mama watching her big boy sang in his cap and gown. then they called the kids up and would say something about them and give them a bag that had there graduation picture on it and inside there diploma, a plaque with there handprint and there yearbook and class tee shirt. when they called up Jimmy they said " Jimmy - most likely to be a legendary Karate Master,even better then Bruce Lee,Jackie Chan and Chuck Norris combined." I laughed my butt off cause its true well that and he wants to be a filthy rich doctor so he can fly back to Midland, Michigan to see his girlfriend Alyssa,lol I find it amusing that we have not lived in Michigan since 2007 and he has not seen her since but he still talks about her and how shes his girl,lol I will post a picture of Jimmy in his cap and gown as soon as my husband looks at the scanner, I cant get it to work.

I am leaving on Friday for Ohio, I am so excited!! Its going to be one hell of a drive, but it should be better then the last time when Derrick was only 5 months old and wanting the boob every minute,lol I made my list's,now I need to do my shopping and packing, FUN FUN FUN!!
I might have to go buy Brooklyn some warm clothes she has not pants that fit her. The boys are good I think. Then there is the problem with shoes, Brooklyn will not wear anything but flip flops, she is such a Florida girl,lol
I cant wait to see the family's and friends. I want some Wedgwood pizza,yummy its been way to long since I had any. I don't know where we are staying yet, my mom moved out of her house and got a apartment for her and my younger brother and I know we can stay there but come on 7 people in a 2 bedroom apartment, no thanks. Then I know I can stay at my dads but my brother lives there with his girlfriend who is due to have a baby any minute (yes my 27 year old brother still lives at home, another story,lol) I will not stay at my mother in laws, her place is to messy and might make me have a heart attack,lol we will probably end up at my brother in laws if I am comfy,lol I say lets get a motel for the week and not put anyone out, its not like there is just 2 of us we are a family of 5 with 3 loud kids 5 and under. I dont want to sound picky I am not I just want to feel comfy and not feel like a burden on anyone.
but no matter what we do I know everyone just wants to see us. well I should get off and start washing some walls while I have energy,haha

Monday, March 30, 2009

just a bit upset

well I am just so upset, I joined shapes about a month ago. which I do love. The gym is awesome, the staff is great, the kids love the day care, and I love almost all classes they have. well when I joined I joined a smart start program, you meet up with a personal trainer, they weigh you and take all your measurements and then find out what your BMI is. Then they work out a strength training program, and set a goal for the month, and after that month you will be re measured and stuff.

well for the last month I workout usually 5-6 days a week, I do cardio everyday and my weights and strength training every other, plus I do about 4 classes a week. I have changed my eating to 5 meals a day, am now drinking more water, cut out pop, cut coffee intake down. plus I did quit smoking a while back.
Today was my day to find out what I have lost in 30 days. I gained 4 freakin lbs!!!!!!!!! WTF
my measurements are not that off, my chest is a bit bigger, but to be fair Derrick has not been on the boob in a few days and I am not dried out so I am a bit full there. My hips and waist has changed a bit, again not much. and My BMI has dropped like.2.........again WTF!!!! I am so ready to buy some freakin smokes,lol
the strange thing is I feel great, go figure.
so I guess I will just work out harder and I have talked with Jim about getting a few sessions with a personal trainer. those are not cheap,I want to say $60-$70 a session. ugh, I just don't win.

oh this is too funny, This morning I was in my bedroom cleaning and Derrick was asking for eggs, I said when Mommy is done I will make you some. he leaves the room. a few min. later I go to the kitchen where I find Derrick sitting on the floor breaking eggs open into a frying pan, with a big smile on his face, I help mommy. I just looked at him and the mess and started to laugh my butt off. though it did suck cleaning egg of my floor, it was just one of those moments you hope to never forget.

well I am going to go always

Saturday, March 28, 2009

lemonade/cookies/ and boats

we had a great day today, we took the kids to the boat parade. It was a nice day to do so warm but breezy and I mean really breezy, so we watched the decorated boats go by, it was about an hour long. we get home and I notice Brooklyn is a little pink on her cheeks. Shit, I forgot to put sun block on them, I should know better we have lived in Florida for over two years. I am like alright no big deal shes just a bit pink, and the boys look ok.

well we just played and had a great day. The kids and I made homemade lemonade, they have been bugging me to do this for about a week now. So I bought some lemons and got my little gadget out and they had much fun squeezing the juice out,lol and I must say I make the best lemonade =) so then my little monsters bug me to make cookies, I give in... we made chocolate chip for the kids and chocolate,toffee chip for mommy and daddy. yum-o!!!!!!!!!

after getting all sticky and messy I threw them in the tub well as I take Derrick's shirt off I notice his shoulders are a bit pinkish, after washing his dirty face and I mean dirt with a bit of his face showing ( he reallly got dirty) I notice he is pretty red even the top of his head. I feel like the worse mom ever my baby looks like a lobster. The good thing is he dont seem to be bothered by it, so I lathered him up with alo and he should be ok.

on a great note, I can say I GOT MY BOOBS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy he has not been on the boob in 3 days, and has not even asked for it in the last 2 How awesome is that he woke me up this morning and said--I need milk please. =)

my husband also thinks we should be able to head to Ohio on April 10th!!! I should know monday or tuesday for sure, but he said as long as his ops is ok with the dates we are good to go. well I should go and watch House, I just started watching that show like 2 weeks ago, and I love it I have my dvr recording episodes daily,lol
the pictures are of Jimmy and Brooklyn with the spoons on them, Jim taught them how to do that and now they won't stop,lol
and then a picture of the boys watching the parade together, and an example of the boats. till later

Monday, March 23, 2009


so I have gotten alot done around the house this morning, I got the kitchen cleaned both bathrooms, and picked up two of the bedrooms. I am now waiting for Derrick to take a nap so I can mop the dining room and living room floors. Then I think I will make it to the gym. I just called Jim to remind him to be home around 7pm so I can go to the rock bottoms class they have on mondays, its my fav. class its hard and painfull,lol but I love it and have been doing it for a few weeks now. well boo hoo Jim has a big store going on tonight that he wants to go to just to keep an eye on. so no class tonight for me, The daycare is open but the class is at 730 till about 830pm and thats pushing bed time, so I figure I will just run down do my weights and cardio and hit up a class in the morning.

So Derrick is almost 22 months and still being nursed, I know what the heck is wrong with me,lol Well I belive in making things easier on me so I wait till they are ready,lol I nursed Jimmy till he was 14 months old and he seemed ready to get off and he was easy. Brooklyn was a bit harder she was 17 months. Derrick is sooo freakin hard, well Friday I decided enough is enough, I want my boobs back,lol so I started refusing him. he was not real happy he yealled and screamed boobie boobie boobie, it was so sad and funny as hell. here is my cute little boy screaming at the top of his lungs trying to pull my shirt off calling for HIS boobie,hahaha
well I am happy to say he no longer cries for it, has stoped asking for it and falls asleep on his own. However he still wakes up around 330-4am wanting it and I give it to him out of habit, to be fair I dont even realize it.
You see I let my babies sleep with me, I know some people think thats bad and its not like I intended it that way, they would always go in there crib but somehow I would wake up with them in bed and my boob out. so now I need to make myself aware of what I am doing and get out of bed and refuse him. so wish me luck on this,lol

I cant belive he will be 2 in June, no more boob, going to get a big boy bed and move in the room with his big brother. he is growing so quick. next is potty training,but we will wait till he is sleeping all night in his own bed.
well Derrick has fallen asleep so I am going to get my floors done. I just am excited about almost having my chst back to myself for the first time in 5+ years, no more breast feeding and prego boobs here I come,lol

my weekend

We had such a great weekend. Saturday we took the kids to the street parade, They had a blast collecting the bead neckless's that were tossed into the crowds. Seriously my kids got so many beads. Jimmy walks around saying, Ya know you like my BLING,lol he is just too funny. even Derrick got into it till they got to heavy to have around his neck, I think he enjoyed the candy more. Brooklyn just loves the pink ones the most. we were going to head to the festival that evening but it looked like it might rain and I did not want to drop that amount of money for it to be rained out. so we took the kids to walmart and Jim bought them those rocket ballons that you blow up let go and they fly around the house making a screaming noise, I will tell you what those things are only a dollar, and they kept those kids laughing and running around the house all night.

So here comes Sunday, I love sundays we get up and go to church, which is a bit hard cause who wants to wake up at 7am on a sunday, not I. But the kids have sunday school at 9am and they really like it and I feel great after mass. so we go and it was just a great mass. we stop at dunkin donuts to get mommy her Ice Coffee, and some chocolate munchkins. Then after we ate we go to the festival and had so much fun, Brooklyn and Jimmy are taller so they got to ride tons of rides, my kids were on the scrambler(spelling,lol) You could see Jim and Jimmy but not little Brooklyn, she got off and had the biggest freakin smile on her face and wanted to go again, but Daddy is old and needed a break he was a bit dizzy,lol so we ate some yummy greasy food rode rides and just had a nice day. came home and it was dinner time so I made my famouse burgers out on the grill, gave baths but kids to bed, looked at the mess and said goodnight,lol so now I need to go clean my messy house,ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

on a great note Jimmy only has 8 more days of school, then its summer vacay, which means sleepin in unless I want to get up,hahaha

my husband has not had a smoke in almost a week, He is doing awesome. he did tell me after he completes the 10 week program on the patche he is getting a tat of the no smoking sign on his stomach by the lung,lol he is so funny, what if he starts back up look at me I quit 4x and I always start back up a year later, craziness..

well I need to clean and go to the gym to work off the greasy yummy fair food.

Friday, March 20, 2009

well lets see here, first we bought Jim the patch on sunday and he started it that day. I am happy to say he had only a few smokes on sunday and monday. And come tuesday he had none, I am so proud of him, this is his first attempt to quit and he is doing so good thus far. I call him daily at work and ask hey did you buy a pack and he says no, so thats awesome. even though there is this part of me like yea go ahead buy a pack so I can too,lol I quit awhile ago but I still went them, yesterday at the park i am pushing Derrick in the swing and this lady comes over and starts pushing her kid and lites up, and damn if I didnt think it smelled so good, which is crazy cause they do stink,lol but I will not lite up, and if Jim dont can you just imagine the money we will save between the two of us not smoking, I already added it up and all I can say is DAMN all that money we wasted over the years,lol

Jimmy graduates in a few days I am excited. I am so glad summer break is here,lol I need it, just to do what we want with not having to worry about school the next day. I am sure a few days after summer break starts I will be begging for school to start cause I know Brooklyn and Jimmy will be at each other,lol

So much I want to do in the next few months, first of course Is the trip to Ohio to see the family. Then I got Derricks 2nd birthday in June and Brooklyn's 4th birthday also in June. I want to paint the walls, Then I have Jimmy and Brooklyn sharing a room, but that will be done,lol well shes a girl and needs her own space plus she talks his ear off at night when he is trying to go to sleep,lol so we are changing the play room into her room, buying Derrick a big boy bed and moving him in with Jimmy. I hope it works out ok, we have always had a playroom but I now need the room. We have been talking about getting a bigger house but I just want to wait and save more money before we do that.

well I should get off and go clean so I can take the kids to the beach. till next time
oh and the pics are of Jimmy, Brooklyn and Derrick

Sunday, March 15, 2009


I am a dork I am some how following my own blogs,lol

ears,graduation and Beach fun

well its been a great couple of weeks. First last weekend Brooklyn asked if she could get her ears pierced. I made the mistake of not piercing them when she was younger, cause I was scared to. so the past 2 years I have been trying to talk her into it with no such luck. well last Friday she asked us. so the next day we took them out to eat and then to the mall, where she picked her cute pink and white flower earings out, then she hopped on my lap and BANG!! she screamed,lol she cried for a bit then asked for her ice cream. so we went to the ice cream shop and the kids picked out there cones. Jim and I were still amazed that she did it we really thought she would have changed her mind. But she loves them and tells everyone look i got my ears pierced do you think they are pretty,lol

also The Flordia weather has gotten nice again, its been in the low 80s so we have been spending time at the beach again. Derrick is too cute he liked it last year but now that he is his own little person he is so darn cute. He loves the sea gulls, he chases them then when they fly away he gets a big wide eye look and his mouth makes such a big O and he yells bird, He loves the water so I think I will sign him up for swimming lessons with Jimmy and Brooklyn. Its gonna be a great summer at the beach with them this year!

Jimmy gets his graduation pictures done on Thursday, he will be wearing a cap and Gown. He is graduating from preschool and they go all out, caps and gowns, graduation pictures,year book, a school tee shirt and they are having it at a banquet hall, just crazziness but cute. He also got invited to a preschool graduation party from a class mate,lol I was like what am I suppose to have one,lol which I am not I am still recovering from his birthday party and I have to plan something for Brooklyn's and Derrick's birthdays in June.

we are suppose to be going to Ohio in April, and we are still saying we are but there might be a chance it will be in May, Jim had to fire two of his managers out of his Tampa office and not sure if he feels comfortable taking a week off with two newbies, though he might have one of his managers from his other office come down and keep things in order, just got to wait and see what he thinks, I want to go to Ohio, I miss our families like crazy.

well I should get off and finishing mopping the floors, why oh why did I get a house that is all tile and hardwood floors, the cleaning is going to kill me, seriously I will be buried with my mop,lol
as soon as I figure out how to work this blog web site I will start posting pictures like my friend Manda =) by the way manda when I come to Ohio I want to get together with you. well untill later.....

Thursday, March 12, 2009

just a bit about who I am

well I decided to get a blog page, since I like to blog and dont go on my myspace as much anymore.

lets see about me, I have been married to my husband Jim for 6 years this april but we have been together since 1999. he is a great husband and father. We have a wonderful family together. My oldest Jimmy is 5 years old, he graduates from preschool in about 2 weeks. he is smart,loving, and just the best little boy. My daughter Brooklyn is 3 she will be 4 in June and I just dont know where the time has gone, it seems like only yesterdy I was in the hospital with her under the belly lamps holding her with all this love. Then there is my baby Derrick he will be 2 in June, and my oh my I swear in the last 3 months he has really grown he talks so much its so cute, they are my world!!
I am lucky enough to be a stay at home mom, so I really have no life outside them,lol I spend alot of time at the parks,zoo's, beach,ect.
well I will get on here when I have more time to give a better blog and I will post Pictures of my family as soon as I figure out how,lol